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Name: David
Country: Eritrea
State: soon to be Japexico
Birthday: 6/26/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: walking into a room, then forgetting why i walked in
Expertise: I'll tell you if you ask... but you wont like it.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/4/2003
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| so i really made my bed on this one. i have to deal with this situation that just feels like thousands of pounds of weight crushing down on my chest. i'm coping with it, but i still don't even know if the full gravity of the situation has even hit me yet, however i really think that i am through the worst of it.
On the lighter side, however, there are a lot of good things happening in my life right now; i'm spending a lot of time outside, i'm kicking ass in fooseball, i get a home cooked meal at least once a week, and my last fortune cookie said something about a romantic interest bringing excitement to my life.
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| i wrote this today. i got some really life changing news last Saturday night, and it's not something that i can talk about yet, but this does a pretty good job of summing up how i've been feeling about it. I call it The Line.
The stick draws a line in the sand
On one side’s a boy; on the other a man
The boy sees the man, and all that he does
He has a quiet innocence and he does not judge
But the man looks away, feeling ashamed
He stepped too far and his innocence was claimed
He’ll glance back at what he used to be
He used to have potential, he used to be free
The child’s eyes catch his during the glance
They make him wonder if he’s here by chance
If it was one decision, or maybe a few
That sent him spiraling through what he’s gone through
If the choices were different, but the consequences the same
Would it be called a mistake or another name?
He walks away from the boy and his stare
Wondering if there’s another line somewhere out there.
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| well. i turned 21 about a month ago and have been loving it. I'm in a beer pong tournament at Downtown Brew, and am ranked 7th out of 45 right now, but there is still 4 weeks left. I have been stuck in SLO looking for a place to live, but because i'm looking with two other guys and we're all students, no one wants to give us a house. it sucks. there is a whole bunch of other stuff i want to be doing this summer in other places, but i can't leave until i can find a place to live next year. it's very frustrating. Tonight i'm also taking out a buddy for his 21st b-day tho, and that is probably going to be fun. but we have two beer pong games tonight, so i have to make sure i'm not too drunk when i have to play.
I know a lot of the guys that work in one of the "fancier" bars here, and am thinking of asking them to hook me up with a job there. it'll e nice to work in a bar, but i wouldn't have any more weekends really. the give and take of life.
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| it's been rougher lately. with classes ending soon, all those loose ends need to be tied up. finals to be taken presentations to be given group projects to get done. god dammit i hate this bullshit, but the same rules apply and i can't complain about it. we've all got shit, and we all have to deal with our own shit. My personal life has been getting shittier though, i'm not sure if it's because i've been working too much to be able to go out much on the weekends, or if maybe i just don't want to go out anymore.... maybe i need a break from that shit. I haven't smoked weed in a while... shit, for the first time in two years i can actually pass a drug test, but who knows what the summer will bring, there will be a lot of reason to spark up without the pressure of school. i guess that's one of the real reasons i quit in the first place, to concentrate on my classes a bit more. that and because i would get drunk and high and do stupid shit. when i would only get high though, it wasn't so bad, just super relaxing, maybe too relaxing. instead of having any stress, all i wanted to do was relax, and so i wouldn't do anything else that i didn't have to do to not get kicked out of school. oh well, i'm passed that now. every now and then i just want to smoke something though, i always wish i had a cigarette at those times. less for the nicotine fix, and more for the meditative, controlled breathing. slow long draw, or short quick puffs. sometimes you just need something.
i survived another year in tke... hell, i became an old guy in the fraternity this year. especially with all the other old guys gone, this year was different for me. i immediately went from new guy to old guy with no in between. i don't mind too much though, it's just more pressure. well, at least next year i'm not going to be holding an executive position like i have been for the past two years. i'm taking a breather from all official leadership positions within the fraternity. i'm just gonna have fun again.
in the area of women... i'm not actually sure that i should write anything about that online. you never know when the words you write will bite you in the ass. I will say this though, i think i am ready to try a more serious relationship again. i've been missing someone who i can really care about, and who hopefully would care about me too. i guess this is something that i'm going to have to be patient for though, great things are never rushed. The same rules apply to us all.
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| today was a pretty good day i guess. i woke up with the intention of going to the DMV at some point during the day, but i guess i'm putting that off yet again. anyways, i got up and went outside to change my flat tire. this took longer than i thought it would because the spare tire was a mystery to get off my truck. when i finally finished this task i went inside and showered all of the grease and dust off of myself, a painful task when you have a fractured rib.
My neighbor invited me to a private preview showing of the new indiana jones movie with tickets and snacks paid for by his company, so when i got out of the shower i headed over that way. It was a good movie, corny but entertaining. And for at least 15 minutes after the movie i had the indiana jones theme music running through my head. duhduhduh duuuuuuuh dududuuuuuu!
when i got home i decided to trey to fix something else that was wrong on my truck, the right turn light. I discovered shortly into the task that it wasn't the bulb that was the problem like i had hoped, which meant it was the wiring. For some dumb reason i decided i'd give it a go and try to fix it myself. Everything was going fine until one of the wires got away from me and touched the bumper, when it smoked and fizzled a bit i knew i had fucked up. I had hoped that i just blew the fuse, but for the life of me i couldn't find it. I then started seeking out the flasher and the switch to see if maybe those were broken, but alas they had disappeared from the material realm as well. I started getting a little worried, why had i done this? now i thought i was going to have to use hand signals to turn until i could save up the money to have it professionally fixed.
Success! at the moment i was about to give up i located the hidden burnt out fuse, and in a roller coaster of delight, it was the same type that i had a spare for! i replaced it, and finished the wiring job on the turn light, this time much more carefully. Now it works fine, hopefully forever, but if not, i know how to fix it!
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